Been struggling this semester.
If anyone told me PostGrad is that stressful, I would not opt for it at all. Not that I regretted it fully. But it is just so hard. I find myself struggling and perhaps my mental capability has come to a full stop. No more input and even any output either.
Everything is so self independant. No one to discuss and talk to about the assignments. No one to seek for advise. No one to help you out. Not forgetting the solidarity that one will feel when doing the damn-ed assignments.
This coming 10 weeks will be even tougher. I just can't wait to let the days flies till december. Yet at times, it is contradictory. I wanted the time to slow down for me to grasp and catch up on the time and focus on my assignments.
I knew that I am in trouble. Gosh! What a deep trouble I am in. I started to have thoughts to quit this semester and fuck it all up. Not wanting to care about it. This definitely is not a good sign, but heck, I hate it so much.
I find myself daydreaming and lost in thoughts. I just wanna fly away from all this. My mum once told me that I stay in my own imaginary world at times and day dreams my days away. I never realize it. I guess she is right. Whenever I am facing difficulty, I will start mentally drifting away, not wanting to face the reality. I let the time flies and wishing the unwanted days to pass by.
Wake me up in December. Please.
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