The End Is Just The Beginning

Oh well,
I wanna mark this day. CKL got married this very day. Not to me. Heck no.



How I felt?
I was rather emo when I heard the news but frankly I got over it. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. My heart broked and healed ages ago. I couldn't forget the past to face a new future with him. I chosen my path and never regretted my rejection on his request before I started my new life here.

And I am glad I did.

I guess his marriage with the gal just put a finalization of the 'what if?'. A total closure. Period.

Green Tea

I found myself constantly having a hot cuppa green tea with me.

The weather is getting cold. I can't help it and start sipping on something hot. Green Tea is my solution.

It's just that I found out that Green Tea do contain caffiene though lesser then coffee. Yes, there are like millions of goodness drinking Green Tea. Weighing the odds I will continue my cuppa. O.. I have craving for this particular biscuit, been eating it day in and out. I got it from one of the Korean Store. It's yummy to the tummy especially good to nibble on it with a good book. Haha.. This is good. I have eaten loads. A box a day.

Unbelievable??

Ha...

Obviously, most of you all would not believe my cooking eh! MuahHaha..
Anyway, to keep you updated I am cooking today.

Dinner Menu:

• Lotus, peanut with pork soup
• Salmon with Teriyaki Sauce
• Greens with carrots

MuAhahhAHhahaa..

The weather is getting colder by day. The weather itself is quite unpredictable with cloudy sky and cold wind. I was rather reluctant to cycle around the city due to the cold wind and bad clouds. Nah! I dun wana get caught in the rain.

Yey! I manage to finish a couple of assignments YEY!!!

Commitments

Gosh. There is seriously quite a huge number of couples getting married this year. At least on those I know.

I wish them well and all the happiness in the world.

Although I wish to have that courage. The courage to commit to another person for a lifetime. The courage to face the future. I do not just mean the commitment to another person, even a thing, a pet or even a property. I think I have commitment phobia, if there is such thing. I cannot bind myself to something that is serious. Looking at my life, there is not a single thing that I can commit for long. I got scared. I withdraw. Leaving me hanging there... just following where the wind blows me.

I willing commit my duty as a filial daughter. I have no doubt on my parents neverending love to me. I am willing to commit to my family. The only thing that I would give the world for them.

I wonder when will I have to courage to commit. An act of adulthood that I refrain myself to engage myself in. What was my problem? Where does the problem started?

I just love to live free... living in my fantasy world.

Ha...

My Cooking

Since I am here, I might add that my cooking skills improved immensely although some will doubt this statement but it is true.

Haha... who would have thought me able to cook. :D

Let me introduce my Udon Noodles with beef sauce with Chix Drumstick.

Ha.. want more proof? I'll try to take more pix before I manage to resist to eat it.

ps. drop your glasses leh??

My two wheel commute

There! My bicycle... and am real proud of it. It brings me to lotsa places and lotsa nice sceneries, much much better compared to my jogs which gives me limited scenery.

Life is Beautiful

It's tuesday.

Boy! Does the long weekend past by before I manage to grab it.

I had such a wonderful weekend. The best moment I had happened yesterday evening.

I went for a ride on my new bicycle alone. Some solitary moment of myself and my iPod. I find myself cycle along the river heading towards QUT and to SouthBank crossing the goodwill bridge. Such a breeze it was that day. The evening breeze was wonderful. I enjoyed each and every moment. I rested and lie down beside the SouthBank man-made sea-pool and gaze at the big blue sky. Sounds of children shouting and laughter to be heard from the pool.

At that very moment, my iPod was playing 'Life is Beautiful' by Vega 4. It just make it more amazing. The lyrics and the music just suits the ambience that I felt.

This very lyrics took my heart " Life is beautiful, but it's complicated, we barely make it.We don't need to understand,There are miracles, miracles".

I guess life itself is a miracle and every issues that arises has different perspective. It just depends on how one wants to see it. The sun will continue to shine, the sky that I am staring at the very moment was total blue without a speck of clouds to be seen. I believe that Life is Trully Beautiful and there is no other way round to it.

After the ride, I went back home and get ready for another gathering at our house. There are leftovers from the BBQ yesterday in Roma Street Park. Quite a big group it was, around 20 of us hang about in the park for food, chats, laughter and games in the evening. The remains of the food was with us and decided to finish it. Seven of us gathered again and had a blast. Pizzas, chicken wings, paties , breads and Mei's lovley cream puff and a few glasses of booze. This is how my weekend ended.

A blast.

Easter Week

Easter break is here. I got a whole week holiday from classes, which technically means : Time to catch up on the studies and assignments.

I never knew Easter is such a big thing. Everything is close on Friday and restaurants usually have 15% surcharge on that day. In Malaysia, it was just another day. Some schools will apply for hols some continue as per norm.

Given this long weekend, a bunch of us decided to go Mount Warning at New South Wales, the central core of the Southern Hemisphere’s largest extinct shield volcano. It is also named "Wollumbin", meaning "cloud catcher", by the Bundjalung people who inhabited the region before European settlement, it is the first place on Australia’s mainland to be touched by the morning sun.

In total of 4 cars (14 of us), drove down South at 8 am. Thomson, the organiser and our driver of the day did all the arrangements while I am in charge of sandwiches and snacks for 3 person.

The climb was the best I had in ages. I must add it's so much more then I expected. It also proof my level of fitness which surpass my expectation. :D. I walked all the way to the top nonstop. The most difficult part is on the chain ladder. The rock is rather steep and the chain is needed to reach to the top.

What I find harder is heading downhill. My knee-joint hurts. My old injury strikes back. The torture walk down hill was hell. The effect was unbearable. The total journey took a rough 5 hours including rest on the peak. Had a great day that ended with a big full dinner in Sunnybank before heading home to rest.

In total, the trip was rewarding and would definitely head there again.

Advise: water is essential along with some snacks (sugar for energy), comfy attire (no jeans) and a good pair of shoes.

Shao Yi

I miss my beloved niece too much for me to bare.I have her photo on my mobile, on my desk, on my dairy.

I miss her smile. Gosh! Her mischevious smile is just to adorable.

I miss her sneaking up on me.

I miss her way sleeping without a care in the world.

I miss her clinging on to me when she is tired.

I miss her tickling and her anticipation on my tickle.

I miss her every move and every gesture.

I miss her singing.

I miss her dancing.

Most of all,

I miss her calling me " AHhhh Gu Gu".
Which I have no idea where the "aHhhh" comes from as 'gu gu' means aunty. It just make my heart melt.

Bicycle

I am a proud owner.

I have decided to get one since December.
Gosh. I must say bicycles in Australia is really damn expensive. Gosh! A normal one cost around $200 equivalent to RM600 and that does not even guarantee good condition for long term usage.

A good quality racer could cost up to $11,000. Crazy ain't it. Around a price of a car. dammit.

I had been looking for one eversince I arrived back Brisbane. On Saturday, it seems to be an all stock 20% off on Riders. I took the opportunity and get one good deal. I got a really cool leisure bike costing $319 (my mum will kill me spending that amount for one damn bike). Anyway, along with it I had to buy a ridiculous looking helmet for protection, front & back light and a chain lock. I'll be cyclying to uni. It's around 3 km ride. That is when I am able to master the skill perfectly safe to cycle on the roads.

Well, not that I do not know how to cycle. But it's been ages since I cycle or even owe a bike. Ha! My bike got two gears, font and back. The back has up to gear 7 and the front have up tp gear 3. I need some practicing on shifting gear. The place I live has loads of bicycle pathway that made it pretty easy and convenient for me to cycle. I'll be cycling away.... RinG RIng!

CookiEs YuMYum

Guess I am so so slacking on updating the blog.Was really lazy. Definitely need to be more frequent on the blog. Promise.

Guess what I have been doing eh?

Made cookies... my favorite cookies of all times: Choc Chip Cookies

My first attempt was not as good though. Too sweet. I followed exactly on the recipe which I got it from the net. Believe me, why bother buy a cook book when it's everything there is to know for recipe on the net. Anyway my first attempt was not bad, though a lil too sweet for my taste.

Will need to cut out half of the sugar on the next attempt.

I'll try to bake every weekend as I spent some money on the mixer. Definitely need to make full use of it. My second attempt was good. I enjoyed the cookies immensely. So does Onnie and Thomson :D Haha.. the two are my guinea pigs for food taster.

I have no idea what I will do next but promise to blog more on my bakings. KekE. The other day, I was msn-ing with Shirley. Who would have thought us two girls exchanging infor on cooking. We never did any cooking during our SQ days. Wait. If you count cooking instant noodles as cooking, that's about what we do cook. :D Ha! Pretty amazing really. We talk almost like anything to everything as we are like 'the buddies' but never on cooking. I guess it's not necessary to cook back then. We changed.. hopefully in the good way. I am sure Shirley is. I am real proud of her.

First trip to uni for 2008

Been back to Brisbane since Sunday and I manage to drag it till Friday. Not a bad start.

It's definitely hot for a start. Too freaking hot for me even for the walk to take the bus. A rough 5 minute walk seems like an hour. The waiting for bus was even worse. The sun is shining directly at the bus stop, leaving me a tiny spot under a tree for shed.

I arrived the uni. Nothing change much. Everything is the same. I am back. I sorta miss it. Not that I have much fond memories but I really do miss it. It sure is busy though. The beginning of the semester.

I manage to head to the student centre for part-time work application visa and manage to get more information on the stuff I have enquiries on. I had to walk from one side of the uni to another. Gosh! The walk was suffocating under the sun. Arggh.. I was swearing away on the walk. I come to realize, I use to complain that the previous uni I attended (utar) was rather small and here I am complaining UQ was too big. One won't ever get satisfied.

Oh well. I finally manage to get things done. That's most important.

Chap Goh Meh

Hahah... Another meal with total satisfaction.

It's Chap Goh Meh. Kok Chiang korkor invited Onn and I to their house for dinner. Food was superb. How lucky am I to have relatives in Brisbane... Oh well, sorta relative. My sisinlaw's bro. The best part was SauSau (KokChiang's wife) gave me Chili Belacan. A small bottle of it. I am so so so happy. YEy!! I must say that the chili belacan is the best. We also had ribs, noodles, fish, chix, greens and keropok. *YuMmY*

Past few days was also a bliss. Onn's parents is here. Naturally, we went out to had our meals plus I did not have time to do grocery, there is not even a handful of rice in the house. I will just have to wait till weekends to do the shopping. I ate loads of good food. Japanese, Seafood, Steak, Thai. MuAHhAha.

It'S All So YumMmy To My TummY!

ps. I got a bit of problem here.. nothing serious. Just that I frequented the toilet for poopoo usually past midnight. Sighz.. wat is wrong with me.

Can't stand it. Poo Poo time.
Ciao

Old

Old Folks Home. Retirement Home.

Throughout my life, I never though about my old age. That is until recently.

My grandma. She is getting rather forgetful and along with that comes with disputes within daughterinlaws and her childrens that I do not want to ponder into. My aunt came back from England and set out a few options for my grandma's life and one of them was retirement home.

My visits to various old folks home was an eye opener to me. Some homes are terrible. Some are clean and proper. Some are just for money making institute. I come to see a few good ones though, which frankly, I dun mind to live there on my own when I am old ( it might be to soon to make judgement on that anyway).

I started to think of my older days. How and what will I become of? There is still much more things that I have not do. There is still so many phases of life that I have not face. I guess, fate and my destiny will take into control on that.

Back in Brisbane

Yup!
Am back.

Gosh! I will miss my family SO SO SO MUCH.
I know I have said it a thousand and millions and zillions time but they are trully the best that one could ask for.

I will miss them.

They drove me from Ipoh to the airport just to say goodbye. I felt heavy. I wanted them to be with me always. forever. I gulped my tears and walk towards the immigration with full gratitude of what they have given me.

CJ 7 and lotsa wishes fulfilled

Ha.. Watch it before I left for Brisbane.

On high request. I ask my mum out for a date to the movie :D I must say this is the best movie from Stephen Chow. It's totally my type of movie. Full laughter and teenyweeny tear, most important part: Happy Ending.

The movie was superb. The kid was marvelous. The alien is amazingly adorable too. Ha.. I wish I can watch it all over again.

Of coz, my mum fulfilled me loads of wishes before I left to Brissie for the year. She specifically bring me for dimsum, ate my favorite noodles, head to Italiamia and bake choc walnut cake. Dad, he ordered loads of yummy food, make sure I was all prepared and all the small stuff that makes my heart melt. Hooi Ling, my ahSou, she cooked petai! Yey!! All my dear dear friends and relatives... Am so blessed :D It's not so much on the wishes but the tiny stuff they made me that touched my heart.

Aweee.... I will miss them so much

New Laptop

Ha! I nearly forgot I am a proud owner of a new Laptop. Dell.

I have been contemplating about getting a new laptop. Been eyeing / drooling on a MacBook for ages. Heck! It's expensive. Decided to go low and get a Dell instead. Thanks to my kor. He ordered it for me.. definitely din pay for it.

As for MacBook, it will have to wait till I start earning my own money.
:D
As for my new lappie! It is so cool. My kor ordered a bigger batt, along with it have media direct ( you can straightaway use the media w/o logging in to Windows. The coolest is the fingerprint scanner. HehE.. Nope I haved not use it. It apparently cannot read my figer. Oh well, am damn proud of it.

My old Toshiba that I have use for .. err.. 4 years was left back to Ipoh. Bit old and cranky.. making lotsa weird sounds need a re-do. My dad will send it for repay. MuaKz.

New Year

When I was young, the first thing comes in mind during Chinese New Year is Angpow. Of coz, along with food, new cloths, relatives, soda, mandarins and lots more.

Now.

It's totally different. The meaning of Chinese New Year is different.

I find myself gettting more and more embaressed getting angpow as years pass by. Gosh! I rather not recieve any angpow. It's like a bell ringing. TiMesUp!!! Relatives will start asking when are you getting married, etc etc. Gosh! Goodness Sake, I rather not get any angpow if that follows with such question.

New Year means lotsa work. Getting ready for the food. Heck no. It's not that simple. It's stressful. Oh well, maybe only to me. No! I did not cook. I am just a helper. Doing odds and ends but it's more than enough for me to handle.

New Year does not mean new cloths anymore. When I was young, I was always eagerly anticipating for the first new year so I can wear my beatiful NEW cloths. Not so anymore. I do not have the eagerness on new cloths.

New Year brought a different meaning to me now. Focusing more towards spending time with the families and relatives. Heck! I was so freaking tired during the day, I seldom go out to meet my friends at night. I can say that I can't even find time to meet my friends much. I was either too tired or too occupied with my family. As I mentioned on my earlier post, as long as my parents are happy. I am happy. fullstop.

Sometimes I just wish I have a bit more time to spend with my friends though. I miss them. I did not see enough of them. Heck. I'll be leaving on Sunday. Heck.

There is one thing that will not change on new year.
FOOD!
Oh food. New Year means lots of good food. Gosh. I was so sad as two days before the New Year, my teeth was in pain everytime I bite/chew/grunch (the dentist work of torture). So on the New Year's eve, my mum took me to a govt dentist (first time) as all the other dentist was close on eve. I must say I am quite impress. The govt dentist did a good job. He re-did the infill of my teeth and all was well again. I can eat with full force. Boy! Am I glad.

FOOD is GOOD during new year.

YuMmy

Ha! I just had a bowl of Laksa.

The best!

Because:

• HooiLing's mum specially ask HooiLing to bring back some for me
• The soup is thick
• The flavor is just nice. Sourish and Spicy to trigger my taste bud to the max
• The noodles fantastic
• The onions and cucumber at the right portion

I have not manage to try a good bowl of Laksa this trip. Haha! As if aunty read my mind for my craving of Laksa before I head back to Brisbane. HAhAha... Seriously, the thought of me already made it taste Super Duper Yummy but the truth is it's really really really yummy for my tummy.

Although I had to share some out to my family. Not that I mind, good food is for sharing. Just for my family though. Gosh! All knows I dun like to share when it comes to food unless there is more then enough. Onnie should know better.

I remembered the time when my mum ask Hpei to bring a few pieces of 'Chu Loong Beng' to Brisbane for me. A type of cookie that was eaten during Mooncake festival. Oh well, I like the chewy and the fragance of the biscuit. I actually did not even offer to him and he knows. He keep pestering me just for the sake of it. I had my stand. What's mine IS mine when it comes to my favorite food.

Oh well. I had a good bowl of Laksa. Satisfaction. Fulfilment.
As usual, all the yummy food is bad for my weak tummy. I have a gastric background, taking things too spicy and sour will weaken my tummy and now I am in pain.

Heck NO! I will never have enough of it. Gimme more Laksa! I will bear the tummy ache with open arms!

Thanks to Aunty (Hooiling's mum)

7 More Days

It's been 3 months.
Another 7 more days I'll be back to Brisbane.

I have to admit that as much as I am looking forward to go back, I am reluctant to go. I already miss my family. I know, I have been doing some complaining even got real upset on certain issues. But that is what makes up a family,eh?What kind of family that does not have it?

I wanted to stayput. I wanted to help out more, especially on my parents. They are getting older by the year and they are still so hard working, day in and out without fail. Their drive of life always amazes me. I wanted to help out. Although sumtimes I am angry and throw my temper with my family (which I am trying to control, seriously), I hold on to my stand " If you are happy, I am happy" and it really works. In the end, that is what really matters. If my parents are happy, I'll do it. Even if there are certain views and issues that I does not agree on. I'll do it. I can feel that this few months even with the moving house and preparation of CNY they really are happy and cheerful (mostly). That counts eh! Plus with my presence!! *kEKE*

Gosh! I will miss them so so so so much.

Mum Dad Kor SouSou ShaoYi QiTao